I'm feeling a little bit introspective this morning.
And I have a question for you.
What big a difference can we really make in other kids' lives?
I don't want to go into a lot of details, but over the last few years I have poured myself into a few kids, wanting to show them love and a godly example of family. And, to be honest, I'm not sure what effect I've had. I've been writing about this for years, but I guess I never really thought it applied to me: it is very difficult to overcome parental deficiencies. Where parents have dropped the ball, it's hard for someone else to pick it up.
That's why programs like Head Start have such absmal records. You can try and try and try, but if kids aren't getting the love and discipline at home, there's only so much you can do, short of God's grace.
I know a family who fostered for eight years. They did such a great job. But eventually they had to close their doors, which was really hard, because it wasn't the best thing for their own daughter. They did see some lives change, which was great, but it took a toll on their family.
I feel that sometimes when we get really involved in some ministries at the church. I am so determined to see these kids change, but it isn't up to me, is it? And eventually, how do we judge our effectiveness?
Maybe it just all comes back to marriage. Yes, we need to be there for the kids who are lost souls, but ultimately it would be better if we as a church took more care in helping couples get married and stay married in the first place, so fewer kids would be lost souls. Because when the family is messed up, what impact can you really have?
So I guess I'm sort of down on myself right now, and I'd love some encouragement. So tell me, did any adult ever have a great impact on you that maybe they wouldn't have seen right away? Was it something that was only visible later? I really need those stories today!
I feel like I'm letting some kids down if I stop doing what I'm doing, but I also feel called to my nuclear family more. But I do want to feel like what I did was worthwhile. I don't want to share more details than that, but that's where my head is at right now.
About Me: I'm a Christian author of a bunch of books, and a frequent speaker to women's groups and marriage conferences. Best of all, I love homeschooling my daughters, Rebecca and Katie. And I love to knit. Preferably simultaneously.